This is how I know I didn't evolve. I was created. It's so evident. I have nature all up and around me.

It's raining outside. Well, not yet. Actually, it's just drizzling, but it will be rain in the forecast until the beginning of next week, and has been for 2 days already now. A full 7 days of rain, and my spirits feel it too. The gray skies, the full clouds, the moist ground each contribute to the demise of my overall being at the moment. I am full of plaguing thoughts, worry, stump, and grumpiness. I just want to stay in the bed, hide under my sheets, and lazy my day away. I'd rather listen to smooth jazz than anything upbeat; I don't want to be bothered with the news or reality shows; I could barely find anything to wear that was comfy enough for me to look office-savvy but not dressed-up.

When the sun shines I'm all aglow. I'm fully personable, willing and able, cheery and perky. There's no joke I don't get, and no rebuttle I can't squash. I pick out the brightest colors to wear in my stash of ensembles and accessorize from earrings and bangles to necklaces and hip-belts.

But today I'm wearing kacki and black. Flat shoes. Only one set of stud earrings. No bracelet, chipped nail polish, and the only making up my face has seen this morning is Vaseline on my lips.

The weather inspires my mood. And I don't even have to look at the Weather Channel to have an inkling of my day. Usually Thursdays are great for me- full of energy, and hope, and promise for the end of the week to come. But not today. Today it's raining. Inside, and out.